You ask, I'll answer!

You know, despite my hesitation, I actually enjoyed vlogging.  I didn't think I would, but I kind of did.  Is it something I'm going to do regularly?  Probably not, but Chloe at My New Life as a Housewife suggested that I do a question and answer type thing, where you guys ask me questions, and I answer it via vlog.  So I thought....why not? 

 

 

So I'm in, folks.  Let's do this!  But the only way to make this fun (and worthwhile, for that matter...ha) is to actually give me some good questions to answer.  The meatier, the better!  But...keep in mind, that I am an attorney, and I always reserve the right to plead the fifth.  Just saying...

 

 

So lay it on me, guys...ask away.  Just leave your questions in a comment, and there's no limit per person.  I'm actually excited to see how this goes! 

 

 

Alright...ready...set...shoot!

  

Houston, we have a problem....

I am supposed to be staying strong.  I'm supposed to be taking one for the team and putting on a happy face.  But I can't.  Because this sucks.  I miss T. 

 

 

The thing about him being all the way in Death Valley means no cell phone reception, no email, no text.  And his work has him going all day, with a three hour delay in time from there and here...so that means I don't get to talk to my husband.  That fact didn't hit me until yesterday when I was heading home from work, and T attempted to call me on one of his breaks.  The reception was awful, and I could barely hear anything he was saying.  I did catch a "I'm not sure how much I'm going to be able to call" and I broke down.  Not just a glistening tear.  Nope, this was ugly.  Full on sobbing, mascara dripping all over the place, snotty nose.  The whole nine yards.  And once it started, it couldn't stop.  And here's poor T sitting on the other end of the phone, in the same room with his coworkers, so it's not like he can say anything more than "It'll be ok, honey."  But I lost it.  You wouldn't have known it looking at the vlog from last night, but I cleaned up pretty well before I hit record.  And calmed down.  Just a smidge. 

 

 

So here I am on Tuesday evening, and I get a  message from T that work has been crazy again today testing trucks out in the desert, and he's not sure he'll be able to call.  I can't lose it on him again, but I'm on the verge.  I'm on the border of an all-out meltdown.  I just want him here.  I just miss him so much.  And this is going to continue until Saturday afternoon.  I seriously hate this.  This sucks.

 

 

I know a great deal of this is pregnancy induced.  But I can't help it.  It sucks that I don't know when/if he'll call.  It sucks I don't know how he's doing during the day and if everything is alright.  And I have no clue how people who have spouses deployed do this because to me, this is just awful. 

 

 

So Nain's a hot mess right now.  A hot, hormonal mess.  And I miss my T.  Why can't Saturday get here sooner?

  

Testing...1..2..3....is this thing on?

Oh.  My. God. Guys, I vlogged!  Craziness!  So I've seen it done before, and even though I hate listening to myself talk or watching myself on video, I decided to do it, because I have some rather huge news to share.  I hope you can play this okay!

  

 So yes, if you couldn't hear it....the news is that I'm pregnant!  We're 13 weeks now, and everything is going just fine.  The picture I attempted to show in the video is actually right here: 

 

 

As you can see, the little baby is just kind of lounging in mom right now.  We got to hear the heart beat, and I can't believe how much he/she has changed since our first ultrasound.  I haven't really started showing just yet, and no, I don't think I'll be posting those pictures of my bump, but that's mostly because honestly, right now, I just feel fat.  But, I did buy my very first maternity clothes this last weekend because Nain's normal clothes just aren't cutting it right now.  I may keep these pants around for occasions like Thanksgiving, etc., because damn, they are comfortable.

 

 

Anyway, I really  hope you guys could hear the video, and I really hope I didn't sound like too much of a spaz :-)  But yay!   We're pregnant!  I'll write more later, but right now, I just want the video to speak for itself. 

 

 

I was going to wait to post this until tomorrow morning, but darn it, I can't wait.  So consider this Tuesday's post!

 



Must...stay...motivated...

We're back to it this week...another week, another Motivation Monday!  You ready for this?  Let's get some major participation this week - all you need to do is just write a post about whatever it is for which you need motivation.  Need motivation making the bed this week?  Getting out of bed?  Sleeping?  (I can give you some of my motivation for that, if you'd like)  Doesn't matter what it is.  Just write a post about it - Mon-Fri, and leave a link to that post in a comment to this post.  And I'll link you up! 


So, I'm minus my other half this entire week.  T is off in Death Valley testing trucks, and I'm here just trying to stay busy.  So my main motivation this week is to keep my mind occupied at all costs.  Because otherwise, I'll be depressed and lonely.  So...to do this, I am dedicating myself to writing and critiquing in the evenings.  I have a TON of critiques to do for my crit group, and I need to add to my manuscript so I actually have something to contribute this go around.  So, I'm going to focus, stay motivated and write, write, write.  It'll be tough, but I think I can do it.  And before I know it, T will be home and all will be well in the world of Nain.  (Did I mention how much this whole thing sucks?)


I may need you, my fellow bloggers, to keep me motivated so if you don't follow me on twitter, I'm @viewfromnain.  Keep me accountable because I may just need it.   Don't feel bad if you  have to come at me ala Rocky style.  Just no cursing :-)


So what's motivating you this week?   Let me know, and everyone...have a great week!

Chloe @ My New Life as a Housewife
Amber @ Amber LaShell Rants

   

Saturday Steals!

 

I don't normally blog on Saturdays,  but I like Camille over at Archives of Our Lives so much, I will make an exception.  Plus, she brought back Saturday Steals, and I just had to share my steal with you this week :-)

 

 

So you know that I'm such an awesome Mary Kay consultant and all, right?  Well, in my Unit this past year, I was number five in retail sales, and I was surprised after work the other day with some awesome swag:

 

 

 

 
I didn't get to go to the annual seminar, but this would have been my ribbon had I gone.  Maybe I'll wear it around the house just for the hell of it.  And I got this cute locket key chain and fun necklace.  Let's see if I can get a better picture....

 

It's not Tiffany's by any means, but I love it.  Plus, it's free!  Who doesn't love free gifts?  So those are my steals for the week.  Stop by Camille's blog and see what other steals people have to share!

 



Bad luck Thursday

Ever have one of those days where it starts off bad and you just think "maybe it'd be better if I went back to bed and have a redo?"  Yeah, yesterday was one of those for me and T.

 

 

So we get up and are getting ready for work...everything going smoothly, and we're actually going to get out of the door at a decent time.  So while T is finishing up, I head outside to take out the recycling and put my stuff in the car.  And I notice it.  My tire is low.  Now, of course, I'm the kind of person who always thinks her tires are low.  I've been caught in way too many places with low tires so now I'm paranoid that my tires are always flat.  I'm always asking T "does this look low to you?"  And the answer is always no.  But this time, it was pretty undeniable.  And we were about five minutes away from leaving for work.  Shit. 

 

 

So I go upstairs and let T know the good news.  We decide to take the car into a tire store and get it patched first thing.  I was inclined to wait, but T didn't feel like changing a full-on flat tire so I caved and sent a quick note to work saying I'm going to be late.  So we drop the car off at Tires Plus, are told it'll be a $25 patch.  No problem.  Not much money at all.  Yeah, not so lucky.  We get a phone call about ten minutes into our drive to work.  It turns out the tire that was flat did have a nail in it (something that's an unfortunate given when you live in a new neighborhood like we do), but it was in a spot that couldn't be patched.  It needed to be replaced.  And they discovered that my front two tires were completely worn to the point that the steel treads were showing.  From what T tells me this basically means I was driving a death mobile to and from work, just waiting for both of my front tires to blow out at any given moment.  Suddenly our $25 fix turned into replacing all of my tires.  And I'm going to choose not to quote how much that fix cost.  Suffice it to say...it was more than $25. 

 

 

We pick up the car after work and head home.  T's following me home, and when I pull into the garage he says "You're not going to like this..."  And I hate statements that start like that, but apparently he noticed, on the way home, that my back right brake light was out.  FML. 

 

 

T's such a good sport, though.  He spent the rest of the evening fixing that problem so that I could legally drive while he's out of town next week.  I guess we should consider ourselves lucky.  Had I not run over that nail, we wouldn't have known that my front tires were so shot.  God forbid that either one of them have blown out next week while he's thousands of miles away, leaving me stranded on the side of the Interstate.  But still....Thursday?  Not one of our better days.

 

 

Here's hoping Friday will be cheaper!

 

All by myself

Next week, it's T's turn for a little road trip for work...well, not a "little" trip.  He's going clear across the country to Death Valley, CA.  Me, I'm not too thrilled about my husband going anywhere that has the word "death" in the title of its city.  But...whatever.  So that'll leave me all by my lonesome. And I'd be lying if I didn't say the thought of this doesn't have me a little freaked out. 

It isn't to say that I'm not independent and can't survive on my own for six days.  Because I can.  Hell, I lived on my own for years before T came along.  Of course, I lived in one or two bedroom apartments on my own, not two story houses.  There's something kind of creepy being in a big house by yourself at night.  (Or is it just me?)

And during those years when I lived on my own and was by myself pretty much 80 percent of the time, I was used to that.  It was my normal.  But that's not my normal anymore.  I'm used to waking up next to the same person every day, coming home to  him at the end of a long day, relaxing together before we go to bed.  My normal changed a LONG time ago, and now the thought of being alone for an entire week while he's on a work trip just makes me feel....lonely.  And totally dreading next week. 

I have to admit...I have this small irrational fear (well, not necessarily small, and honestly, probably not irrational) that something bad will happen when T is gone.  The bad thing I'm worried about?  My grandpa.   I know we're going on a week by week basis right now, and I can't expect T to not do his job just on the off chance something could happen while he's gone, but I am convinced that something will.  Unfortunately, that's just the way things somehow work out in my life.  But I have been promised that he will be on the first plane home if something does happen.  I just pray nothing does. 

So my plan for next week?  Keep busy.  I have decided that next week is my writing week.  I have about 5 critiques to do, and I haven't written anything in my manuscript in months.  So, why not take this time and make the most of it?  And try to avoid the fact that I'm incredibly lonely and miss T? 

I have a feeling this will be my motivation for Motivation Monday next week...let's keep focused, Nain!