So today is my last day with my current job. As happy as I am to be closing this chapter of my life and leaving what has quickly turned into a toxic and just all-around bad situation, it is somewhat bittersweet. I will miss my employees. I will miss the people I've gotten to know here in this community. And I'll miss this cause that I support so much. But unfortunately, it isn't meant to be, and I'll be closing this chapter and stepping into a whole other role. I'm nervous, yes, as my first day is Monday. It's something that is completely different and new for me. I'll have to do a lot of learning, but I honestly feel in my heart this is the right choice.
Now how do I know this is the right choice? I know because of the changes at home. The changes in my relationship with Tim. The changes in how Aubrey has been behaving. But more importantly, the changes I feel physically in myself. I can breathe. I find myself laughing more. Smiling more.
Last weekend....unlike others...it was....well, pleasant. Aubrey had only 2 meltdowns, but other than that, it was amazing how differently she behaved. All of this within days of me changing the way I acted around her. Granted, T and I also changed the way we disciplined her and acted when she would try to act out. But I have to wonder if she picked up on Mommy's mood. It's a noticeable change. Even at daycare it is noticeable.
I know all of what was going on with Aubrey is not on me. She's 2, and well...toddlers are not always the easiest people to be around or reason with. But it really is noticeable.
So despite the fact that I am somewhat (albeit not really all that) sad, I know I'm making the right decision for my family and for myself. Today is bittersweet but also exciting at the same time. Here's to my next adventure!