We've been really blessed these past two weeks that T's work gives him two weeks of paid paternity leave. Having him at home with me has been so great. The first week back from the hospital, my ability to do any physical activity was extremely limited so having him here to help me just get around the house was great. I honestly don't know what I would have done if he wasn't there. And having him here to just spend that time with me and Aubrey was priceless. So needless to say, I've been dreading this day for weeks. The day when T would have to go back to work.
So we're getting back to a semi-normal in that now T has to get up every morning just like before and head back to work. I say semi-normal because I'm still at home which feels incredibly weird. I'm not a stay-at-home person by any means because I have to constantly be busy, but being limited in what I can do and not being able to drive just yet is driving (ha, no pun intended) me crazy. I'd love to just be able to get out for a little bit. At least with T here, he'd make me leave the house if not for a short car ride every now and then because he knows how I can get. (One of the many many reasons I truly appreciate him.)
I know that we must get back to our normal routine eventually, but it's been nice just having my little family here and now I feel like a huge part of that is missing. Not getting to see T until he gets home from work just doesn't seem like enough. Why can't men get that same time off that women get off? I mean, it's just as important that a father have that time to bond with his child, right? I feel bad for T because I get the whole day with Aubrey, and he has to wait until 5:30 to spend time with her.
I realize I'm rambling here, and honestly that's probably sleep deprivation. But suffice it to say I'm totally bummed. We miss you, T, and can't wait for you to come home!
Sigh. I miss those days. But I do remember missing John so much when he went back to work, and then starting to become irritated when he couldn't afford to get up in the middle of the night with her. I was off. I had to do it. Then it all balanced out again. Sounds like a great two weeks though!
ReplyDeleteAww hun it is hard. Ours don't get paid paternity. They can take up to 12 weeks off but without pay and who can afford that in today's world..
ReplyDeleteTough day for sure. There will be good days and bad days - days when you can't wait for T to get home just so you can take a break and days when you can't wait for him to get home so you can tell him all about the little things that Aubrey did that day. But every day is another day of memories and another day of more experience as a parent.
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