This week's Spin Cycle, brought to you by Gretchen at Second Blooming is about love. With February and Valentine's Day, love is definitely in the air. However, Valentine's Day means a whole other thing to me this year and from every year on out.
See, one year ago, at 11:40 a.m. on February 15th, a beautiful little girl entered our world. She has been and always will be the best Valentine's Day present ever.
Before Aubrey, I did know love. I loved T more than anything in the world. He is my soul mate, the love of my life. But I think we can both agree that on that day, we both experienced a type of love we had never felt before. Love at first sight...
I loved her as soon as I heard that very first heartbeat with that very first ultrasound. But to hear that cry, to see her beautiful, tiny face for the first time, to hold her in my arms. That was it. I was in love.
She has made our family complete. She has made our family immensely better with her beautiful personality, her smile, her laugh, her love.
I don't think there is a thing I don't love about that little girl. Even at our worst, when we are thinking "for God's sake child, please just slow down!" Even at those moments, all she has to do is turn around and smile, and my heart immediately melts. I just love that little girl so much.
I love her from her head to her tiny little toes. I love kissing those cute little cheeks and blowing zerberts on her baby belly.
So much has changed over the past year. She has changed so much. We are blessed every day with getting to see the little person she is becoming. She truly is our little miracle.
I mean, who could resist that smile? That's a smile that surely will break hearts some day.
I love to see her sense of exploration. Her curiosity, and her determination. I'm not quite sure where she gets the stubbornness from because neither her mother or father are stubborn, but still...
Every morning, the best part of my morning is going to wake her up, pick her up out of her crib and snuggle her before getting her ready for her day. Or when we pick her up from daycare, and she has that first glance, figuring out that Mommy and Daddy are there to pick her up, and the smile just goes from ear to ear.
I love her personality. I cannot wait to see what the next year will bring for us.
Another thing that makes me love her that much more? I see her Daddy in her every day. Before T and I were married, I wrote him a letter saying that I couldn't wait to have his child some day, to carry a piece of him inside of me and create someone who is the best part of both of us. And looking at this picture, it's hard not to see it. And it's hard not to fall in love with it even much more.
Sure, our lives have been crazy this past year. We've undergone so many changes, so many ups and downs. But you know what? I wouldn't have changed a thing. Not for this little girl.
Aubrey, you are the light of our lives. You bring joy to our life every single day. I never quite understood just how deep the love of a mother and her child was, but in that single second when I heard your first cry, it became so clear. I was overwhelmed with love, joy, anxiety, and understanding of the greatness of what God had given me. This year has been one amazing ride. I love you more than you will ever know. And you make your Daddy and I proud every single day with everything you do and everything you are.
Happy 1st birthday my sweet baby girl. We love you - always and forever, our sweet little monkey.