This week started off a little stressful, I will admit. I'm struggling. This week more than ever I'm facing the tough fact - being the boss? Well, it can kind of suck at times.
I have Michael Scott syndrome. I go back and forth between wanting to be that tough boss to wanting to be everyone's friend. I'm a people pleaser, and when I think someone doesn't like me or isn't happy about something I've had to do, I freak out. I start to worry. I make myself sick with worry. I start questioning my judgment. I do pretty much everything in my power to make myself feel awful about having to do something that I have to do as a boss.
I hate it. Not being the boss, but being the boss when things aren't all rosy and happy.
Why can't things be all peachy all the time and everyone like me?
Because they can't. So I guess I just have to suck it up and deal with it. But I'm totally not good at that with thinking "it doesn't matter what people think of me. I have to be the boss." Or should I just worry constantly?
Hmm...I wonder which one of these things will be worse for me?
The funny thing...well not so funny, is that Nain is feeling the health effects of stress. It's not pretty, and I'm pretty ticked about it but I guess I have no one to blame but myself. Not only is my blood pressure high, and not only do I have chronic heart burn...but now I have TMJ. From stress. TMJ? Seriously? So maybe, just maybe I should let this go.
If only it were that easy.
So I'm open to suggestions....anyone?