Friday, May 11, 2012

Being a Momma

Second Blooming

It's been quite some time since I participated in the Spin Cycle.  Jen at Sprite's Keeper passed the torch to Gretchen at Second Bloomings, and I think sometime after that, I just got lazy and stopped joining in.  But I'm a joiner, folks.  And I want to get back into it.  So, Gretchen, I hope it's cool that I join in on your fun :-)  Here goes nothing!

This week's topic is on Mothers, in honor of Mother's Day coming up this weekend.  This topic has played a huge role in my life this past year.  And this weekend is a pretty big deal for me.  It's my very first Mother's Day. 

I don't think there was any way I could prepare for the huge change that happened when this little girl was brought into my life:

She's cute, right?

From the moment I first heard her cry and held her in my arms, I have felt the most overwhelming feeling of love, joy, anxiety and fear - all wrapped into one.  It's hard to describe, and I know that you mothers out there totally get what I mean.  I never believed in love at first site, but looking at this picture, this is exactly what I was feeling at this very moment.  The first time I laid eyes on my baby girl:

I fell in love with every part of her:  her skin, her cute little chubby cheeks, her little hands, her ears,
her adorable little toes...everything.  She was and is absolutely perfect.  She's the best part of T and me, all in one little amazing person.  I still tear up looking at this picture and even more just writing about that overwhelming feeling I experienced at that very moment.  And that feeling hasn't gone away...even on those nights where I'm woken out of a deep sleep by her cries at 3 a.m. and I shuffle half asleep in her room to feed her.  I still feel that way.  That feeling of "I can't believe she isn't sleeping through the night yet" just disappears as soon as I pick her up, and she burrows her little head into my neck and her butt curls up into me, and I realize that I'm her Mommy and she depends on me.  And that means the world to me. 

Every time I see her beautiful smile, I fall in love with her even more. 

Being a Mother, I believe is the greatest job I have ever taken on.  And I feel so honored to be blessed with this little girl.  I want to give her everything I can.   I want to inspire her to be a strong, independent person.  I want  her to follow her dreams and always believe in herself.  I want her to not make the mistakes I made in my past (Though I know I can't always control that and that she will make mistakes of her own.)  I want to protect her from anything bad that could harm her. (Again, totally not within my control.)  And I want her to know that no matter what, she can always depend on me and her Daddy.  We'll be there for her no matter what, forever and always.  And I want to know that one day, when she is on her own, I can look back and smile and say that I gave her everything she needs to become one amazing woman some day, which I have no doubt she will. matter what....she will always be my little girl.

And I'll love her, forever and always.


  1. She is beautiful, Nain! They do change everything, don't they? Love at first sight - you said it!!! My 21 year old son gave me the children's book "Love You Forever" a few years ago for Mothers Day - the most wonderful gift I have ever been given. Congratulations on being Aubrey's mother!!

  2. You expressed those feeling that every mother has upon becoming a mother so well. I now know unconditional love and the objects of my love are two little boys who entertain, exhilarate, frustrate, annoy, and thrill me daily.

  3. Aw, she is so lovely! Don't even listen to my own Spin, your daughter is gorgeous! Happy Mother's Day, Nain!

  4. Yes, yes! I LOVE that you have a picture of the moment you first saw her! You know, my son is 9 now, and I still feel that way about him every time I see him. Amazing, right?

    Welcome back to The Spin Cycle! SO glad to have you back. You are linked!!

  5. She is beautiful! I love that feeling. Even with all the teenagery in our house, that feeling still breaks through in the most unexpected times :) And of course when little Sophie, who would not give a kiss for anything a few short weeks ago, comes running to me asking for a "tiss!" it just bubbles up all over the place <3

  6. Best job in the world, happy first Mother's Day!!

  7. Yes, no matter how old she is she'll always be your little girl!

  8. Oh, yes, she is beyond cute! Congratulations on becoming a mother! :D


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