Lately I feel like I have been running around in circles. I simply don't have enough time for everything. I know we all have this problem, and I'm desperate to find a solution for it. I had been all motivated to do my "to do" list thing, but that has fallen by the wayside. Maybe I need to go back to it, but all I end up doing is adding things to do and never getting around to actually doing them. I just add them to the list, assuming that eventually I will catch up. However, lately, this just isn't happening.
Case in point - my Mary Kay business. I did my $1,000 sale, and that went extremely well. All items have been sent out to everyone, but since then, nothing. And I can't do that. I do have inventory to pay for, and I want to continue remaining in contact with my customers and scheduling appointments. I just can't seem to find the time to just sit down and do it. For awhile there, I would designate an evening for "office time." I think that lasted one week. I want to get back to that because, with the holiday season coming up I have a ton of things I can be doing. Plus, there's always that looming tax time, and I'm not exactly the most organized. But who has time to organize? I don't even know where to start!
I do find time to work out, but even that can be a tough battle. Cleaning is something that rarely happens. We used to clean the house every weekend, but recently I haven't been able to keep up with that. Once the weekend hits, I want to spend as much time as I can with Aubrey, and I feel like I'm neglecting her by putting her in her bouncy seat while I clean.
And that's the kicker - when do I get to spend time with T and Aubrey? They are obviously my priority, which is why other things kind of get shoved to the side. Because that seems to be the most important thing on my "to do" list. But at the same time, life doesn't just stop. I mean, things still need to get done. I can't just ignore them, and if I do, when I finally get around to working on that "to do" list, it's way too overwhelming.
I have so many friends - in real life and blogging life - who seem to do this so flawlessly, balancing a career and family. And I wonder how they do it. (If any of you reading this are one of those moms, let me know...I want tips...) How do I do this? How do I balance being a wife, mom and a full-time job? And extracurriculars?
I want to teach Aubrey that she can have it all and that she can do it all. But at this moment, I'm doubting that myself. I wrote a post awhile back wondering about whether women can have it all, and I guess I'm wondering if that is, indeed, untrue.
I must say, I'm surprised I found time to write this blog post. Check that off the list and onto the next task!