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It's sad because I have kind of become obsessed with it. Well, not obsessed. Well, maybe. And it's probably not really sad. It's kind of a good thing. It's something about which I am passionate, so that is a good thing, right?
Question for all of you...what do you do when you are conflicted over what makes you happiest in what you do? It's a struggle, I guess. But I don't think I've been this excited about something in forever. Unfortunately, I can't really pay off Sallie Mae with that alone. And I am passionate about law, too. I'm passionate about both of it. So how do you balance all of that?
In the perfect world, what would I do? Well, I'd be living in Dublin, Ireland, holed up in a coffee shop or pub, writing full-time. Aubrey and Tim would be there, of course. But in a perfect world? That is what I would do for a living.
But see the thing is, it's not a perfect world. And I made decisions to follow other dreams. Expensive decisions. I don't necessarily regret the decisions because I'm good at what I do. I love being a lawyer, and I love working for a non-profit. I'm good in court. I'm not tooting my horn, but I don't suck. But I have a heart condition. And three times now I've been forced to wear a heart monitor, have been put on two blood pressure medications and am seen by a cardiologist. So, I'm good at it, but is it what I should be doing?
They say you should work to live and not live to work. I think there is a happy balance in that. I think what you are doing should be a complement to who you are. It should just...fit. It's work, but it's work that you enjoy doing. So in a way, it's following your passion, too. Hold it here, I'm getting entirely too deep.
I'm not going to suddenly quit my job and move off to Ireland by any means. I still love what I do. I want to do everything I can for this agency and make it as successful as I can.
So I don't know what I'm saying here. I'm just rambling, and you, as my readers, are just going to have to come to a conclusion of what I'm getting at here. Maybe if you guys could do that, then maybe, just maybe, I could figure out what it is that I want exactly.
But that's neither here nor there. I am blessed and happy to have a job that drives me and about which I am passionate. It might be for just right now and not forever, but I'm so very lucky to have it.
Where God takes me next, I don't know.